No self and self
Individual and universal
Two sides of a coin
We are whole or integrated but mostly we have no word to call it by.
Its practically all middle but we usually only see it from one side or the other.
We can sometimes feel the middle but only by oscillating between our two sides.
Like particles and waves. Possibly the reality is not sometimes particle and sometimes wave but particle/wave. We only can see it as its two sides.
Imagine the front and back cover of a book 
and at the same time all the words and the entire story in the middle. All the continually changing details of every moment of your life. Experience the detail of every breath as the daily opening and closing of the petals of a rose.
Spiritual Gravity 